Currently Listening JoJo By JoJo "Leave (Get Out)" see related

Gosh, I never thought I'd really think or even say this, but I am so unhappy with the way I look right now. I mean I've never been a conceited one, but I never really cared too much about how I looked or how much I weighed. In fact, I remember when I didn't need to worry about that stuff because of my super fast metabolism. But because of this stupid Depakote (that I have to take or else I'll be having seizures all over the floor) I keep on gaining weight like some kind of over-fed cow. Now I'm so subconcious about my weight and how I look. Plus I really want this super cute short, spikey haircut, but it only looks good on skinny people. I need to lose a lot of weight (like 30 or maybe even 40 pounds!). I think I'm gonna try really hard to watch what I eat and stuff, and take walks everyday because it's finally warm out. Or maybe I could go to a gym! Whatever. My goal is to get that haircut hopefully around my birthday, which is in 79 days (is it even possible to lost 40 pounds in 79 days?). I'm probably over-reacting, but it doesn't help when skinnier girls are struggling so hard to lose weight too. Whatever. We'll see what I can do! ♥jenn